To my dearest friend Timm, There are so many reasons why I love you, but what I love most about you is simple. I love you for just being you. I’m so blessed God placed you in my life because you are my heart’s treasure. I’ll never forget your kindness, love, and the memories we shared. In another time and a happier place, I can’t wait for the day that we will meet again. Rest easy in Heaven 🕊🤍 With all my love, Helen “The reality is that you will grieve forever. You will not ‘get over’ the loss of a loved one; you’ll learn to live with it. You will heal, and you will rebuild yourself around the loss you have suffered. You will be whole again, but you will never be the same. Nor should you be the same, nor would you want to.” “I shouted at death like death could hear me that this isn’t fair. And I asked a thousand why’s. All my questions, doubts, and fears were answered with silence. Between the anger, there was heartbreak and disbelief. This can’t be real. This can’t be my reality. This can’t be yours.. But this nightmare of grief was reality. And the reality is, I lost someone I loved. I’ll never know the reasons as to why. Yet, I don’t think there is an explanation that would make me feel ok. Love has been filled with grief. What once was, can no longer be. And while the anger fades, the wishing you were here never does.” ~ Thank you to my amazingly talented baby sister, Teresa, for directing and recording my first ever music video!! ^_^ It means so much to me how much you believe in me and bringing my vision to life, especially since Timm means so much to me. I’m such an awkward turtle in front of the camera, but you helped ease me into it tremendously. You are a natural talent at this with your great directing skills, good eye for framing the shots, and bringing out the beauty in locations that are often overlooked. I’m over the moon that we were able to pull this off, especially all on the iPhone!! I’m so grateful for all your support and encouragement. You are my better half, my dynamic duo 👭🏻 You’re the best :’) I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!! From the bottom of my heart, thank you 🥹♥️ Director/Cinematographer/MakeUp: @xoxoteresa2954 IG: https://www.instagram.com/_xoxoteresa Producer: @Sappheiros IG: https://www.instagram.com/sappheirosmusic Mix/Master: @omitobeats IG: https://www.instagram.com/omitobeats Songwriter/Video Editor: Helen Nguyen WEBSITE: https://www.helenkitty.com IG: https://www.instagram.com/_helenkitty/ LYRICS: I keep looking back But you’re not there Why’d you have to go? Cause now the world is so cold I miss you I need you here I miss you Don’t you know I need you here? Here with me Do you remember the times we had? Through all the good and all the bad It’s sad to think that this day would come Where we grew apart I’m sorry I wasn’t there when you needed me I miss you I need you here I miss you Don’t you know I need you here? Here with me I miss you I need you I need you here with I need you here I miss you I miss you, I miss you, I miss you Until we meet again I’ll keep you in my heart No matter how hard it is I’ll live this life for the both of us #HelenKitty #IMissYou #ShotOniPhone

I’ve been struggling with depression for quite some time now. I didn’t understand my purpose in life and had a deep hatred for myself. It’s been a very lonely and dark place. To bloom is beautiful, but it is not easy. They say the two most important days in your life are the day you are born and the day you find out why. I was born on Saturday April 27th, 1991 at 1:26pm. Today, I reclaim my life back. 🌹 And a big thank you to God, my dear family, friends, and especially my baby sister Teresa. I am eternally grateful for all the love and support you’ve shown me through the toughest times of my life. Thank you for continuing to be on this new journey of healing with me. I love yal more than words can define, feelings can express, and thought can imagine 🖤 *** FREE DOWNLOAD LINK *** You can download my song for free on my artist website. If you'd like to read a little more about my experience, it will be on my blog. I'll have a lot of content pertaining to my mixtape, behind the scenes, and my random thoughts on there as well. This is only the beginning and much more to come. As always, thank you 🖤 WRITTEN BY Helen Nguyen https://www.helenkitty.com PRODUCED/MIXED/MASTERED BY Omito Beats https://omitobeats.net https://www.youtube.com/user/omitobeats https://www.instagram.com/omitobeats/ MIXTAPE ART COVER BY Annie Spratt https://anniespratt.com https://unsplash.com/@anniespratt/collections https://www.instagram.com/anniespratt/?hl=th MAKEUP ARTIST/PHOTOGRAPHY BY Teresa Nguyen https://www.instagram.com/_xoxoteresa/ LYRICS What is the meaning of life? I don’t wanna die Before knowing how to be alive Oh You define what happiness means to you, to you, to you I hope you find what you’ve been searching for Bloom Let go of what’s holding you back Bloom Your destiny is calling you back Bloom No matter how dark it is Bloom, Bloom, Bloom All of this pain has been hard You didn’t even think you’d get this far But here you are, here you are Reaching for the stars Despite all your scars I hope you know that you’re a work of art Oh, Oh, Oh Oh, Oh, Oh Bloom Let go of what’s holding you back Bloom Your destiny is calling you back Bloom No matter how dark it is Bloom, Bloom, Bloom Let go of what’s holding you back Your destiny is calling you back

Time and time again, my inner demons would torment me. If Hell was a place on Earth, it would be inside my mind. I've struggled with depression and anxiety, and I wrote this song out of frustration because of how debilitating it was to my mental health. It's like a never ending battle that had a hold on me and felt impossible to escape from. But no matter how hard the struggle, I’ll always fight back. LET ME GO is the first track off of my mixtape, Finding My Will To Live. I wanted to celebrate my birthday today by releasing this song. It's been three years since I've put out any original music, and I'm excited to dive back into it. Music makes me feel alive, and I feel so blessed to be alive today. Thank you God for the gift of life, and here’s to livin it to the fullest✨ A huge thank you to my sweet baby sister Teresa & my precious nephew Justin, who always comes in clutch for me. These visuals wouldn’t have been possible without yals talent and help. Yal are the best, and I love yal ♥️ “I’m surviving because the fire inside me is burning brighter than the fire around me.” Makeup Artist/Photographer/Videographer : TERESA NGUYEN IG: https://instagram.com/_xoxoteresa Video Editors: ME & JUSTIN Songwriter: ME ^_^ WEBSITE: https://www.helenkitty.com IG: https://instagram.com/_helenkitty LYRICS Let me go x4 This is fucking hell I’m trapped tryna’ break out of this insecure shell I go around with a mask so you can’t tell My mind’s a fucking madhouse where my demons always yell  Let me go x7 Is this my punishment for all the wrongs I’ve done? I’m shackled by these chains Living my life in vain Let me go x6